When in Ithaca... |
Then one evening after visiting my dear friend, Marisol, in Aptos, my car-lust was no more. As I was in the outside turning lane to get on the freeway at State Park Drive, the man on the inside turn lane decided to go straight, thus ramming straight into the driver's side of my little beauty. Only slightly shaky, (I've been in a major car accident before...)we pulled over at the nearby church and exchanged information. I almost cried looking at the smashed doors on the poor, innocent little body. After he informed me that it was his first day in the country and his GPS told him to go straight rather than turn, I gave him a little hug, and we chuckled about the strange layout of the ol' American roads....er...whatever, I felt bad for the guy.
So my brother and I end up exchanging cars, because as a student, he has a more flexible schedule to get my car fixed for me. I end up driving his equally sorry car--1995 Mazda pick-up truck (the hick brother to the Ford Taurus). As I begin my daily commute to Felton, I realize that it stalls in 2nd and the anti-freeze leaks into the car so that when I turn on the defroster, it smells eerily like maple-syrup flavored Quaker Oatmeal packs. After a few weeks of driving his truck, I realize that I am frequently congested, and the anti-freeze may be giving me some rare form of lung cancer.
Long story short, my Dad decides it's not worth fixing my Honda, and the $1800 I got for the damage could go to something more practical. So there you have it--I drive the injured Honda to teaching each morning. My co-workers do a double take when I park in the staff lot, wondering if they should scold the student for parking in the lot.
So why have I told you about my complicated past relationships? Well, this morning on my way to work, I lower the visor and notice a little prayer card clipped to it with a binder clip. My dad must have borrowed the car when Nick and I switched cars. Anyway, I usually ignore his little religious icons because he likes to put them everywhere that you might possibly look (glove box, bathroom mirror, pillow, you name it). When we were little, there was an average of five crucifixes hanging in each room, but that's a whole different topic. So I decide, hey I've got a few minutes, why not read this.
It is titled "Acceptance," and I realize this is something that is so apt for me, so I pause before walking to class and take a moment to read it:
When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation -- some fact of my life --unacceptable to me. I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at that moment.
Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God's world by mistake. Unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy.
I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.